Entry Two

This is just a couple of minutes after my first entry, of course. Seeing as how I can't sleep, I feel like I should be productive and make a list of things that I want to do or see before I die. This will be my bucket list, yes, and I will not harm myself in a suicidal manner until I have accomplished the following:

1. See the Northern Lights for real
2. Do at least one shoot as a pin up model
3. Flawlessly play a flamenco song on guitar
4. Publish a work of poetry
5. Eat a burrito in California
6. Visit Michelle and Sam in New Mexico
7. Have an orgasm while having sex
8. Spend a year dedicated to trying to make it as an actress
10. Make it as an actress
11. Pick up cello
12. Produce my own record
13. Scream as loud as I can in public
14. Go to Africa, Italy, Brazil
15. Get off medication while in a healthy state of mind
16. Garden
17. Skydive
18. Dance naked in the rain

STOP. I just remembered I have an account at 43things.com
Upon checking my account, I realize that I HAVE completed some things. I AM not idle. Here are the things I have done:

1. Get a passport
2. Learn to play guitar
3. Get 1000 subscribers on Youtube
4. Quit smoking pot
5. Get my lip pierced
6. Create my own web site
7. Fall in love

^^now even though I'm not the BEST at playing guitar, I do play it. I haven't smoked pot in a year. I fell in and out of love, with Christopher. I love my boyfriend, Jake.

I have things to live for.

I'm such a freak sometimes ::facepalm::

I'm not happy, I'm just...amused at myself. But in a smiling, I love myself kinda way.